2026-06-17
- I was home alone for most of the past week; my online cohort at Seasonal Survival helped me keep accountable when it came to cooking and eating, and also keeping the house and myself clean. I was scared I would lose my routines and miss my dosages and have a breakdown, but that didn’t happen. We watched TBNA, and I played a ton of ARAM Mayhem.
- Even outside of those days, I played Mayhem a ton. It’s still really fun to me, even with the current patch changes. I understand that I’ve been turning to it for repetition and comfort, which worries me a little because that’s how League often makes me forget that I have other hobbies.
- The reason why I’ve been needing that routine and familiarity is because things at home are rather stressful; I’ve been taking care of my mom because she broke a bone and it’s impacted her mobility, and the tension when she gets frustrated seeps to everyone around her, including me.
- Her phone broke, so I gave her mine and bought another one. Configuring them both was, unsurprisingly also tense and stressful, but we managed to do it. I’m happy with my current phone’s camera and battery life, since really they’re the only reasons I can’t buy very cheap models - I can’t afford a portable digital camera with a decent quality and it wouldn’t fit into my usual bag anyway, and I can’t get many people to move away from Discord, which eats up my battery on a day-to-day basis really fast. I can do my reading (both visual and via TTS), I can do my backups, I can take pictures that don’t look terrible and unintelligible, and I can communicate. What more could I ask for?
- I had a bout of heatstroke at work, since I spent more time outside than was strictly necessary and we’ve been hovering 37ºC (40ºC next week…); it left me feeling nauseous and achey, and I don’t feel like I’ve fully recovered, even if I have to be back at my job on Friday as usual. I continue to hate my job and worry that it’s psychosomatic, but how would I even somatize something so specific? I dread the long commute, the long hours, the conflict, the heat, the blame.