2026-07-12

• I started experiencing suicidal ideation at work.
• I felt powerless and overwhelmed by the requests of the client and the workers I supervise.
• I had to do the work assigned to them for the service to function adequately. I can support them, but I can’t do their jobs for them if I have other matters to tend to.
• I was under a lot of pressure, but according to my bosses and my family it was self imposed. They told me I was doing great but, to me, this level of performance is not sustainable.
• I give it my all at the cost of my health. The praise is not enough to make it feel worth it. The money is not enough to make it feel worth it. The only way to endure is to not take it so seriously, because it is when I start giving things this importance that I start shirking and avoiding (self imposed fear of screwing up. Do I fear the consequences? What specific responses or facts do I fear?)
• I quit my job.